In loving Memory of baby SAMUEL-JOHN WILSON Born in the 01st April 2010 Died on the 09th April 2010 9 Days Old Rest in peace my precious child. The pain i feel is far from mild. Not a chance to say good-bye before HE gave you wings to fly. My heart becane shattered, my life such a mess. Wondering daily, if i'd ever progress. It's been 17 days since you were taken away. The mask of a smile is the image i portray. RIP Samuel-John 01/04/2010-09/04/2010. Our journey began on the Monday morning on the 29th March 2010 i was having pains in my belly so i rang for an ambulance to take me to Darlington hospital i arrived at about 7am. By the Wednesday the doctors had me tranferred to the James Cook University Hospital in Middlesbrough where Samuel's and my journey began, here Samuel tells his story: "Thursday 1st April 6:19am, i have just arrived on the hospital ward, i can hear a lot of noises around me but i can't see anybody i can hear people rushing around to keep me ventilated and warm i have been transferred to a different ward from my mummy i am on the neonatal unit the reason why is because i am 15 weeks premature and only way 660 grams(1lb 7ozs). I have just held my mummy's hand for the first time. All is looking really good i have got a poorly left foot it is a bit swollen and two of my toes are a bit dusky but the doctors are going to give me some magic medicine to help clear it up. I met my daddy, my big brother Joshua and my big sister Katlyn today it was great. Friday 2nd April 2010 good day overall my foot s still swollen but everything else is working ok should be starting some milk tomorrow. Saturday 3rd April 2010 Mummy went home last night but she came back this morning made me so happy, i had been a good boy over night which made mummy very proud. I have started my milk happy days. Sunday 4th April 2010 still on my milk seems to be agreeing with my body all god so far, my foot has gone down a bit today but my toes are still dusky especially my big toe. I was weighed today i have lost a little bit of weight i have gone down to 600 Grams (1lb 5ozs) but i should start putting some weight on now i am on my milk. Monday 5th April 2010 i think toda has been a bit of a strange day mummy has been really upset and worried as they have taken me off my magic medicine but my foot is still a bit swollen, but they know what they are doing. I have even been changed on my ventilator from a controlled volume of oxygen to let me do my breathing on my own but it is still there if i need help. Tuesday 6th April 2010 we are back on track today mummy feels better too i have had my brain scan confirmed for Friday hopefully everything is ok. Mummy got a big surprise today Daddy turned up at the hospital to take mummy home for a day as she needed to see Joshua and Katlyn my big brother and sister who i met for the first time on Thursday when they came to see me. See you Thursday morning mummy. Wednesday 7th April 2010 mummy would be cery happy i have had a really good day no problems. I was weighed again today i told you my milk would put my weight on i now weigh 640 grams (1lb 6ozs). Thursday 8th April 2010 mummy came back and on a good note too as i have been doing really well they have placed me back on the controlled ventilator but thats just to give me some rest. Mummy has been doing my cares and when she came dowm at 11pm to give me a wash my milk had been stopped mummy asked why but the nurses said that she wasn't to worry as i would be back on t by morning so mummy cleaned me down, changed my bum and oiled my skin. We both then went to bed. Friday 9th April 2010 mummy came down to see me this morning and i still wasn't back on my milk doctors also wanted to do a chest and belly x-ray today i already had my brain scan today. Just had all my scans done waiting for the results i can sense mummy is worried but no-one is saying anything. The chest and belly x-rays have just come back and they are trying to insert a new medication drip in my arms but they can't do it after a long battle they decided to add an extension. By now it was tea time and mummy was in the flat, Dr Tin and two other doctors came to find her to let her know what was going on and that's when mummy got the worst news of her life that i her little boy was very ill and the chances of me making it was very slim. The doctors rang my daddy to get him to the hospital as mummy was too distraught to do it herself, daddy managed to get there by 08:40pm where we all had a cuddle and pictures taken together. I was then baptised in the hospital by the minister there as mummy and daddy held my hand and all my friends at the hospital who have taken care of me. Friday 9th April 2010 at 09:40pm i am tired now and iwant to go to sleep i am ready to be an angel to watch over and wait for my family." The memory of Samuel will always be remembered for many reasons i am hoping to set up a fund raiser to raise money for James Cook University Hospital to help to improve equipment used on the neo-natal unit so that we can help other parents going through this experience and also in time we would like to prvent the illness taht had taken our precious boy from us, steal anybody else child. Samuel-John Wilson gone but never forgotten. YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALONE SON.